December, for me, always marks crossing a threshold. Partly because of the obvious reason of the year coming to an end and eagerly anticipating the new year; its new challenges & its experiences.
There are constant moments of "letting go" and "embracing" what is yet to come.
This month has been extra challenging for me. First of all because of my "lull" in writing. I have so many feelings I would like to express, stemming from a lot of personal issues, but can't find the right words to do it just yet.
Although, it did help with my recent work conference in Hawaii earlier this month. Being in the midst of such beauty and serenity did help propel some thoughts to paper. And I will always carry that with me.
The biggest challenge of all, was being a labour coach for my girlfriend, who's baby was due towards the end of December.
And in fact, this morning, at 5:53am, we welcomed Finn to the world.
I really didn't know what to expect in stepping into this support role. I only hoped that what I know from experience, with giving birth to 2 boys myself, that it would be enough to provide focus and calm to such a tumultuous yet far-from-dull pregnancy. Seeing Finn for the first time brought back feelings of such elation and joy. And all I could do is embrace it, soak it in and be grateful that I was a part of such a wonderful moment!
All I can say, is that I couldn't find a better way to round off a stressful, emotionally filled, rollercoaster-of-a-ride year for me....
...and I wouldn't trade any of these moments for the world.
I heard once that The right person At the wrong time Is still the wrong person. Missing you worsens. But missing you doesn't warrant Deserving to be with you. Neither does it mean That you miss me too.
This unpredictable period of time in my "writer's cycle".
No telling how long this will last.
In all honesty, it's not a writer's block, per se.
On the contrary, I find that I've been coming up with verses with each passing day.
But it's all just in bits and pieces right now.
And also, I just have been keeping my distance from certain things.
I find that usually in these periods of lull, I don't have the energy to actually sit and focus on writing a full length poem.
I usually like to dedicate myself entirely.
And I find that lately, I don't have the time nowadays either.
Inspiration doesn't come as easily as it used to.
But it's something that I'm working on.
So in the meantime, so as to NOT be so detached, I've already added a 'micropoetry session' feature. This comes in handy for those short verses that I just can't help but share.
In addition, I've also created another page that's dedicated soley to my poetry.
Please check out my poetry blog, befittingly called: j_poetry (the same as my twitter).
I've made it very similar to this here personal blog of mine, yet very streamlined and simple so as to focus more on my words, rather than some of the other content I choose to share on this beloved page. :)
Patience is key in my trying time.
I'm open to finding new things to write about every day.
To my fellow poets/writers, thank you. You are a constant source of inspiration for me.
As much as this lull can be so easily seen counter-productive, I embrace it as part of my journey.
Sometimes, once in a while in your life, you need to step back and appreciate things as they are. Good and bad. Choosing to let go; Choosing to remember. Whatever it is, just be thankful that it happened nonetheless. Because being in the midst of beauty such as this, there is no need to dispute the whys. It just IS. Blessings to you all.