I am
Trying to find the remaining
Traces of you when we saw each other last…
On my hands
On my skin
On my lips
In my womb
In my heart
In my veins
Traces that have since evaporated into silence and
stillness
The kind that turns love from a verb…
Into a noun…
Into just another word
Another sound
The kind that turns emotion upside down
Growing stagnant at every roundabout
I try to counterbalance and transcend the silence…
And all I am left with is defiance
And a need for comprehension…
Where did
We fall?
Where did we
Go wrong?
Where were we travelling to…
To let this go on for so long?
I am trying
To find balance in this equation…
Because I have memorized and know all too well
What it feels like
To multiply distance
By more distance
I know that my third eye and heart weren’t failing me
that last time…
Weren’t trying to shield me from the happiness, joy and
unity we felt
Every time we divided the distance in half…
In thirds…
In quarters…
In meters…
In millimeters…
Until the distance was slashed down to zero…
Touching…
Making everything real again…
Multidimensional
Recreating linear shapes of your face from screenshots
and FaceTime
Into real-time…
Multi-sensory…
Retracing and rehabilitating those pathways where
brainwaves
Recollected your touch
Your scent…
And paved new lanes into my mouth to taste you…
You are the same…
Yet new every time…
Those old sensations made new extrapolate into my spirit…
And I re-educate
Resuscitate my inner being…
Remind me why we ever left…?
Remind me why we chose this
Torturous road of unconditional love and
Passionate unrest…?
Remind me…
Remind me…
Remind me…
-j.jimenez
April 2016
Achingly beautiful, you put such heartfelt pain into your poetry
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